Kappa Alpha Theta

You never realize how much you miss something until you don't have it. This sums up my feelings for being a Rho Gamma. I still had my sisters and friends, but I didn't have those three letters. I wouldn't have changed being an RG this year because I grew closer with different people and had an amazing time seeing Greek Life at as a whole. 

 I knew I was upset about being de-affiliated, but it didn't hit me until Preference on Saturday. I was assigned to keep time on the Theta porch, which is exactly what I wanted. I wanted to be able to listen to my sister’s sing and read letters. As I sat on the porch with my ear stuck to the window, listening in on the ceremony, it hit me how hard it was not to be in there. A year ago from Saturday, I "preffed" my best friend and this year I wasn’t going to see her experience her first Theta Preference as an active sister. Since I couldn't be there, I wrote her a letter. I wrote, as I like to call her, to my little girl. She instantly knew it was me because I never address her by her actual name. I knew my letter would make her laugh, but what was even better was I received a text from a sister who watched as it was read and she said she actually teared up. I knew what I had wrote, but I was still upset. I missed my best friend.

Sunday came so fast, but not fast enough. I was so antsy the night before and in the morning. I was in charge of Bid Day and the theme hadn't been revealed yet. All I wanted was for the theme to be a hit with my sisters and it wasn't anything less. I walked by my home with all my sisters and at that point I just wanted to reveal my letters and run to them. Some would say I was a mess, others would say that I was just being Courtney. I tend to cry at sad things, but I wasn't sad Sunday. I was filled with happiness seeing my wonderful sisters and new sisters to be standing all around me. As the time came for me to reveal myself, I couldn't contain myself. The tears just came. I was finally allowed to have my last name, my sister’s back, and my letters. 

A few nights before Sunday, my best friend and I practiced her catching me. We both knew I would come running at her and we didn't want to end up on the ground. Don't worry, she caught me and it went better than planned. I hope someone got a picture of it because it was the greatest feeling having my best friend and sister catch me. 

She said she talked about me to girls, as our new sisters ran to us, I wasn't introduced as Courtney, but as "the best friend" that she always mentioned. I feel like I already know so many of our girls because of her telling me about them. They probably feel the same about me. 

I'm blessed to be back home with my amazing sisters. I am excited to start teaching all of our girls about the Theta way, as I am the New Member Director. It is going to be amazing next few weeks and I can't wait for it to start.